Bah-Humbug

[SH_]

SH- I do know that no one else had the power to take anything away from me. I just felt like blaming something, lol. I am afraid I will not get my loving feeling back, but most likely because I haven't found the right one yet. No one had any power over me. I've done so much deep digging into myself, I can't stand anymore. My majority of my frustration comes from so much inner work, finally loving myself, and it still ain't happening. I feel like the universe just keeps giving me the finger.

Well darn it Ginger...The universe wants to give it to ya...maybe if you put down the finger on your hand... LOL

Maybe it's not so much about digging anymore, perhaps it's about just relaxing and truly enjoying what you have become and have now?
Maybe then the universe can give it to you when you cut that final string...
I believe that you will reach a point that you will attract that which you are and want...

I do hope you can see what you have and how much you have to offer...
White picket fences...is not all that...and it is a way to compare yourself to others...please my friend let that go...
Trust me, the more I dig, one really should question the "perfect" family that is marketed to us as well as the "American dream" etc...
No use in making oneself crazy comparing to that stuff...more fluff than stuff if you ask me.

You are already all that and a bag of chips...
You just gotta believe that.
Then you will attract that which you have worked for.

“Very little is needed to make a happy life; it is all within yourself, in your way of thinking.”
Marcus Aurelius Antoninus

“The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be.”
Marcel Pagnol

True Happiness come from within yourself, not from someone else. don't make the mistake of waiting on someone or something to come along and make you happy.

PS, I have always been a bah-humbug kinda guy...and this year I have learned why...
STBXW was so involved with the commercialism of the season I lost the joy I had with the holidays...I was raised to enjoy it through service to others.
I am going to go back to that which provided joy and happiness...in giving...not a person and white picket stuff...

Just an idea to get out of the funk of the season and stir up a little inner peace and joy.

You are a wonderful person and you can be happy as you choose so