I can't believe that he still gets to me.

Ugh. I have completely moved on. He is an irrelevant factor. I have gone to great lengths for this to happen.

I laugh his nonsense off.

I'm infrequently exposed to it, yet I'm able to see it at face-value (which is entirely the depth of what he is).

However, when he tries to weasel his selfish, horrible ways into my kids' lives, I get so irritated.

Perspective: I am very aware it's their deal and they will figure it out and find their way and do what they need... and I support that. Yet, underneath, the real feelings are in turmoil. So, I have to let it out, come to acceptance, then, I tend to move on- at a much quicker rate, mind you.

Although, my experience in dealing with this has become less untrained as his presence is just on this side of non-existent.

Where this is coming from right now? Well, Mr. Wonderful, every once in awhile, will reach out to d15 trying to get her involved in his family life.

This time, he wants her to go to a holiday party with old friends of ours (my old neighbors who helped me out after xh left and no longer spoke w xh). So that was shocking, itself!

They also moved to a new location and have invited the happy little family to a party and xh wants to take d15 and a friend and said it would be "preferred" for her to stay the night (which she's only been there for a total of 10 min).

The choice is entirely up to d15, and if that's what she wants to do, then thats cool.

The whole thing just nauseates me, if I'm going to be honest. I know, it's the same old stuff we all have to go through. It's just so hard to wrap my head around... especially bc they are all so phony- just like the lives they lead. Which I'm unphased by at this point, but throwing d15 into the mix... parading her around in this charade is just annoying, to say the least.

OK, I think I've gotten it out. Sometimes I just need a safe place to vent still. I will be fine in like 10 minutes, I'm sure.

And MLC still ALIVE and WELL! Xh rolled up in a shiny new Camaro the other day.

Came to take d15 to breakfast. They spent 45 minutes together. I think its been a total of 2 hours in the past 4 months. Anyway, it was clear he was looking for a reason for a joy ride! Maybe show it off? I laughed. He looks pathetic.