When this first happened to me I felt like a failure as well like what is wrong with me...it passes eventually...it is not us, we are working on ourselves and making ourselves better...I know its hard but we will get through this.
Sounds like you are doing what you need to do to take care of yourself which is good. Sorry that this is moving so quickly..I guess quick or long it is still a difficult situation to deal with so hang in there!!
W:42 M:48 T:9 yrs M:1yr BD: Feb 2016 EA Confirmed: Feb 2016/PA July 2016 D: Feb 2017