I am happy to report that I have nothing to report.
So I will say again and again, to those of you in the thick of it, that it will change. I do remember the hopeless and desperate feelings. I had this constant gnawing fear that things would be that way forever. It was terrifying and I felt so out of control, like I was waiting for someone else to make it okay.
But they won't and they can't. It won't stay this way forever, and time will keep marching on. It will be okay and your life will be even better than it was before. You have to decide.
I don't think I see it this way because my H came back around. I think it is more due to time passing--life keeps happening-- and more so than that, I changed my perspective somewhere along the way. I decided that I want to be happy and that I want to be okay in life no matter who is with me, or leaves me, or comes back or never does....
When you get to that place, and you will, you can make that decision too.
I just wanted to add some comfort in your day, if only even a little bit. I hope all of you will come back some day and tell me, "you know what, you were right, it is okay and it will be better than before."
Blu
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela
