bsb - Living in limbo is tough. I've been there since March.
I've not read back in your sitch but am confident that you can do this. You need to look inward, build your own confidence in yourself back and be strong enough to stand on your own to become that person that only a fool would leave.
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells