Still no changes. She never responded to my email about separating the bank accounts and phone. She's probably mad that she has to pay for her iphone before she can move it.... For someone who what's this over so quick is taking her time now. Do I just hang tight for now?
I couldn't sleep last night again. Kept thinking about us.... I hate it
My emailed response is in my old thread above. I talked about separating the bank accounts and phone. Those are the only financial ties we have now. I told her once these bigger items are taken care of we can then worry about the smaller items like wedding gifts.
Struggling again today. Had dreams about wife last night. Hate when I wake up from them!! This no contact thing is really hard for me. I know I shouldn't and so far I haven't but I keep getting weak... I keep thinking she's going to reach out but doesn't look like that's going to happen.
Still have not been served so I'm not sure what the status of her filing or not is. Being in limbo is part of my issues. I spend way too much time wondering about her and if she misses me.
Struggles continue today. I feel like I'm taking steps backwards. Maybe the truth is starting to settle in with me. As soon as I started feeling a little better this weekend became the worst in weeks. As much as I try not to, I think of my wife. I miss her voice, her touch, and her comfort more than anything.
I'm still staying strong I'm not contacting. It's been the hardest thing I've done.
I feel like now she doesn't care. It's a hard thing to swallow... Someone who just 6 months ago said those vows. Just to walk away a few months later. It's got my mind so screwed up that I do t know what normal feelings are. I'm
bsb - Living in limbo is tough. I've been there since March.
I've not read back in your sitch but am confident that you can do this. You need to look inward, build your own confidence in yourself back and be strong enough to stand on your own to become that person that only a fool would leave.
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells
Her dad stopped by to get some things I found around the house. She was with him but didn't get out of the truck. She kept looking back at us while we were talking. I didn't need to see her this weekend. It's already been bad enough.
I know all this db is for me and to make me stronger. I just realized tomorrow is our 6 month anniversary. Not sure why but it's hitting me hard..
It took everything for me not to go up to her and talk. I would wish this upon my worst enemy!!!
Got out of the house last night to watch the cowboys blow it...
Feeing a little better than I thought I would today. Going dark the last couple weeks hasn't really worked. It's probably helped me some but it hasn't made her think/wonder as far as I know.
I want to reach out. I want to know if this is what she really wants and to tell her it's not too late to work on things.
Advice?? Would I be setting myself up for failure?? She already knows all of this from when we talked weeks ago.
I want to reach out. I want to know if this is what she really wants and to tell her it's not too late to work on things.
To me, reaching out may not be the best thing. If she hasn't shown any change in her feeling toward you, then I'm not sure that reaching out would be anything other than pursuing.
I made the mistake of reaching out and testing the water but it never worked. Not once. It just pushed her away even more as her mind was made up well before hand.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
