Thank you Vanilla, your insight is always welcome and helpful.
I spent the weekend enjoying the sunshine and today took the kids to lunch and a park for 2 hours. They found some other children around their age and ran until they dropped. On the drive home all three of them were sleeping in their car seats, it was hysterical. They just had dinner and I am taking it easy while the baby plays with his toys and DD5 and DS4 are playing "cooking." WH is on call so he will not be off until 7 pm. I am just enjoying the evening in peace and quiet. Soon I will get them bathed and ready for bed and everything set for tomorrow.
The realtor called and it looks like we found the house and the price I wanted. We are going to be able to get the house for well below it's value as they market is cold and the seller is HUGELY motivated to get the house off the market. Te schools are some of the top rated in the nation and they are public. This will be a big savings as I was planning to send them to a very expensive private school but that may not be necessary.
Things between WH and I are cordial. Yesterday I was playing with the kids and he was watching me. HE asked me very softly, "Can I hug you?" I was a bit surprised as he has never been the one to approach me for physical affection. I said, "Sure." He held me very tightly and I backed away after a few seconds and smiled at him. Before I would have felt excited and hopeful but at the moment I just felt neutral. That's my weekend update.
M 10yrs T 13yrs BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce April '17-Letting go 2018 D busted DD8, DS6, DS3