Cherry. Just trying to get on with life

[Cherry]

To be honest Blu, I've had very little dealings with him recently, and despite feeling the odd bit of sadness, I've generally been doing good. I've been super busy with work, GAL with my best girlfriend, GAL with S, mil, family. Home renovations, baby shopping, baby preparing. And I had gotten to a stage where I wasn't even sure if I wanted to be in S m, I just knew that I was not going to be the one to file, push that he files, or pay the financial costs of filing. Partly because I am in no rush, I don't want another relationship for a good while until I've found my feet. And right now, my mind is fully on making sure me and my S are okay, and that I'm ready and prepared for the new baby. I've recently had freak outs at being a single mom and having a newborn, to which I've voiced to the antenatal team taking care of me, they're also aware of my situation and I'm seeking ic to better improve myself.

I agree with you on that, my mil has known what he's said for about a month, she was in two minds wether to tell me, as she didn't believe it for one, but she also knew it would hurt me and anger me- which I really don't need while pregnant. She has spoken with her ic about this and decided to tell me. Though her ic told her to remember that he isn't well and that this is fairly typical off a severely depressed individual. But that I really agree with you, sure something's I can say "well he isn't right in the head", but this is deep. And the fact he said it, I don't think I could find any reason to justify. At all.