I also think about the friendship side and wonder if I should have just kept it that way rather than taking it to the next level. I knew my H for seven seven years before we started a relationship and we always got on so well. But as Rouky said we can't undo the past and we have to move forward with whatever the future holds. Your H isn't ready to come to you as yet and you are doing well leaving him on his journey (much better than I have with my H but I'll post about that later!).
I love that you are embracing all the holiday invitations and I am very jealous! Have a few more glasses of mulled wine for me!
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')