Hawho is spot on .. time sinkhole is a great way to put it.
Read a bit on the boards and especially with the new recruits understand its normal what you are doing but do listen to the advice of training yourself to start moving the focus from your H to yourself.
You know what happens when we focus on something ... it gets bigger ... you need to become bigger. You matter, I was listening to a podcast and I will have to paraphrase here but they said that it is your job at this point to become selfishly self preserving ... meaning you must make yourself, your physical and emotional well being a priority ... they compared it to that drill the stewardesses give us on flights ... in the event of lost cabin pressure, place the mask around yourself first then attend to others. This was a tough lesson for me to learn but I realized I was no good to my son nor my MLCr if I was wrecked.
