V- thank you for your continuous support. I truly appreciate it.
Fightin’ crazy how we still manage to feel bad for them.
I fear I am getting lost in it…I feel depressed again. (Mind you I’m on anti-depressants) I don’t know, I feel weird. Off. I’m always tired. I sleep a decent amount yet I’m always tired. I also feel so lonely. Not entirely sure in what sense. I dreamt about W last night / this morning. I woke up around 3am in tears. No rhyme or reason. Then I had another dream until my alarm rang. I have so many emotions that I’m not entirely sure how to sort. I have a IC appointment next Friday. I thought I’d be ok scheduling them out further apart, boy was I wrong. I wish It was today. But now I know to schedule them closer together.
On gal, I’ve been busy this week. Not just with work (busy season) but we had our company holiday party, I mingled. Totally out of my comfort zone. Made a new friend over in a different department. She’s nice, going to get lunch with her next week. There are about 80/90 employees and we generally only know the departments we work with, for example I work in finance, so I know the people in finance, IT and Warranty. Because those are the only people I have to interact with. At any rate, It was nice to mingle and talk to people. It was a plus one even, a few know I am married, so I did have a couple “where is your w” questions. Those were difficult. Thursday was a happy hour / surprise get together for a friend. And tonight is the actual party with more people than the happy hour dinner. Saturday, I plan to sit at home and study / do nothing. And on Sunday morning we (roommate, roommate’s bf, and the girls) are going to get a Christmas tree from the woods. And just spend the day at home decorating, cooking and such.
It’s been extremely cold around here. Like single digits / barely not even over freezing. I love the cold. It makes me happy to see snow. The other morning I was ready to dig out my car and to my lovely surprise Roommate and RBF had already cleared off my car and a path to it. I felt very lucky and appreciative. It’s nice to be able to appreciate the little things. It feels good.