So confused

[fightin]

Yay, glad you stood strong! Being busy helps for sure. I keep thinking I'm on my way to feeling really good about the D and then I have a night like tonight where I just cry and cry. These are hard times, bsb, and I think we're in for much more ups and downs to come.

I can relate on the texting and such, it really is hard to lose not only your spouse, but your best friend and comfort. I'm currently sleeping in a twin bed (horribly uncomfortable too) and surround myself with pillows so the bed doesn't feel so empty. I also have an app on my phone that offers all sorts of sounds to choose from and that helps me avoid the silence and helps me sleep.

Good for you for making her file though. Keep staying strong, but remember it is okay to let your emotions come and go as they please as long as you don't act on them in regards to your W. Feel them, accept them as part of the process. I hate it, but I can't seem to stop them when sadness hits so I just roll with it.