Am I in withdrawal ... will he ever wake up

[Lana_71]

Hahaha ... I guess he decided to put me to the test... of course he didnot reply 2 days since I sent him my invitation msg and still no reply ...somehow I did expect it I guess... in usual cases I would have followed it with an angry reply of you don't need to answer or any other angry reply which could escalate and make me the wrong person... usually his is very politically correct and would never send a msg in anger... anyway I felt light and powerful for being able to send it anyhow and not being scared or rejection...but thinking deeply why would anyone receive a nice invitation msg and not reply... well he could be involved with someone... I have no idea if there is someone but in sept he said no and we didnot see anything to suggest... he could be financially very bad ... which I know as a fact.. when we were in sept he didnot have 100 in his wallet and he was working like a dog ... paying bills ... or not interested... kids asked him about his back and he told them he still need the operation soon ... anyway whatever his issue is he need to find his voice and speak up ... until then I am not going to pick a fight because sometimes that is what he wants to relief his guilt feelings if he is having them... well will continue to wait and see if he ever will come back to me ... i wonder how he sees himself st the moment... he used to have very high views about himself... that he doesnot retaliate like I do sometimes... one day he told me he has a lot of patience ...and he is willing to wait until other party kills it... so passive aggressive... well will see who has more patience this time...even if we decided to leave each other I will not make it easy for him to feel goo about it ... by acting decent and with values and hopefully no truth darting ... not easy but I keep reminding my self of my plan ... will keep u posted if he ever pops up again or not ...