Yesterday/last night was a doozy. Started crazy and went to Harley blocking me on FB to a freaking 3 AM (EST) phone call from her that lasted roughly two hours. Good grief I am tired.
The latest would make a statue's head spin. It seems as if Harley Q had contacted my ex, about what I don't know. Its always nice to get a message from the ex saying "why the **** did Harley (she has another word for her) message me???"
So, I had to put out that fire. I still don't know what that was about but at least the divorce is final and that can't be used against me. Good grief. A brief history - the ex knows who Harley Q is and does not like her in the least bit...during some of the more insane fights we had, she'd always say "why don't you call Harley?" haha. But I digress.
My brother made me think and see things in a different way - he knew and thought highly of Harley Q when we were dating, but now he has some concerns. He asked me - why, after all this time and especially after what happened, would she jump at the chance - and even suggest it - to fly all the way out here and see you? I think he may be thinking of her having some issues. He may have a point, and I may tend to agree especially seeing as to how the ex was involved.
So, I ended up saying to her maybe we should just think about things for a bit. That didn't go well. And she blocked me from FB. Sigh. I thought that was the end of it until that early phone call. She explained a lot, including the message. Still not sure on that. She was apologetic and wanted to try over.
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Hidden/unspoken expectations.
I think that phrase hits the nail squarely on the head
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Or the weight of your divorce on her. You might be doing that without realizing it... maybe not, but something to think about.
I think I may have been doing that. An awesome friend suggested that I'm not ready for a relationship yet but I may be projecting onto her, because of the "need" for one. Maybe she is right - maybe I'm still caught up in the effects of the divorce that Harley Q is sort of a self-though life jacket.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
