W has not received a reply from celeb for a few weeks now. I told myself perhaps it was cooling out and she might work on us soon. She doubled down in stead. she sent him some pretty suggestive writing and an erotic piece of art. All my doubts are erased now. He is practically a fictional character but he obviously occupies the place in her heart where I should be. Lots of things that she said over the last months make more sense now. Healing wise I may have hurt her yesterday. we have not healed at all because she is not trying to heal. I'm sticking to my plan. I don't want to ruin the holidays for my kids and I already promised her no sex no talk for December but January is my deadline. I can't let myself out of this or I will be stuck in the friend zone forever. I realize that my sadness means nothing to her right now as long as I am quiet.
I really need help with how to deal with the issue of her abortion because I'm 99% sure she will use it like a weapon when I bring everything into the open.
I think having her leave our bedroom and doing more housework is completely appropriate now because we are basically roommates while this is going on. I would still be open to any suggestions about this matter as well though.
Thank you all for your words. I don't have anyone to talk to about this and this board has been a lifeline for me. Just typing this out has lowered my stress level.
