MLC H at age 32, maybe single mum with a toddler S

[Maybe]

I start to think that LBS goes through similar things like MLCers. We are depressed, in denial, going through emotional ups and downs, going through withdrawal from our S like a drug. I feel like an addict when I miss him. I know it's bad for me, I need to stop myself from wanting closeness. MLCers are GALing as well, just by making all the wrong choices. The best way to detach is NC, just like when you are quiting smoking, you don't want to be around smokers. It really [censored] that I see him all the time. And it's hard to lower expectations when you do expect him to look after S from time to time.

Anyway, just want to share this. H's birthday tomorrow. No gift except for a packet of dried fruits as a joke (what he got me from his MLC holiday). Really want to give him a hug coz he's nice enough lately. Don't know if it's a good idea. But apparently detaching still allows us to give and receive love. Just don't expect anything. I should prepare myself from negative reactions...

Bye for now