Just journaling to myself. It's been a pretty good day! I had a long talk with my best friend, and he really spoke good words into me, and I have been feeling a lot better. Funny how you forget how many people love you just for who you are - when your other half tells you how bad you are! It just serves to hammer the point that the real confusion and spinning is in the WAS. (Obviously we all have our goods and bads.)
I also have had three different people jokingly tell me I should charge them for my advice on their relationships - and I'm really just using DB principles to objectively look at things. One person set a boundary with their domineering mother-in-law, another was freaking out over a new relationship and calmed down, another went and took their angry wife flowers instead of getting angry back. Spreading the DB love!
Now three weeks of dark with only one contact. I won't slip up again. I feel like the moments of missing and wondering wth happened are shorter and less often. I just keep reminding myself in another three weeks I'll find myself focusing on Christmas and other things. Then three weeks later, it'll be into a new year and a new start!
My GAL: 1. I've started trying to set daily, weekly, monthly and yearly goals to accomplish, so I'm going to write those out this evening, and start trying to make that a point every day. I just want to get my focus on accomplishing things. 2. Set a weight loss goal - rejoined the gym even though I have been working out at home some, and have lost 11 lbs. Ironically, SO had gained about 20 lbs from the point we took the time apart in July; probably petty to notice that, but hey, I'm amongst friends right? 3. Schedule my first over-seas trip. I have been trying to get to this since things with the XW went sideways almost 6 years ago ~ and it's time to do something for ME.
