Focus on Me and the Boys 10

[J5K]

Ginger,

I agree with you. Friendship is out the window at this time. I meant that portion to come across as friendship down the road on my terms.

If that is ever possible, if she will ever truly respect me as the boys father and a 50% parent, if she can ever put her ego to the side, and if she can stop holding a grudge about me filing first and let go of the past.

I get she no longer sees me as an equal and a partner since she is not getting her way. I will not be in the type of R we had in the past with her or anyone else again. Lesson learned the hard way.

I did get rejuvenated this past weekend though and found a bit of myself again. I had energy and laughed and had fun. I am gaining that back and trying to balance that with the responsibility of 5 boys. One day at a time is all I can do.

Sara,

I whole-heartedly agree with your statements. She is toxic to me and potentially to the boys. I do not want to judge her R with the boys, no longer my place unless it is harmful to them. Whatever actions she chooses with the boys will affect her R with them.

It is probably good that the boys do not know the details of what XW and I have been going through to get them help. They will know that dad did take them to therapy and that dad is doing all he can to make them comfortable.

All I know is I gained some very valuable information that has breathed new life in me again. I can be fun dad and responsible dad at the same time. I just pray I can get things organized quickly to finally settle into a home somewhere and start my vibrant life with my boys!