Hanging on and hoping for the best

[BillyHo]

Hey Bman,

I try not think about it in terms of how long will I put up with this. I try my best not to look too far ahead. One day at a time is how I'm trying to see things. If I look back even a month ago my W and I went almost 2 months without any real conversation. Now we can communicate openly and honestly. Sure she's moving out but it's not the end of the world. I love her and my family enough that I know I am nowhere close to giving up. After all what is 7 months compared to 23yrs of being together. If we don't end up together I will be able to look in the mirror and be content with the fact that I did everything I could to save my M. Her decision is hers alone. I am willing to give her the time and space she needs to make that decision without any pressure from me.

When this started I read people saying that W is giving me the gift of time. Back then I thought what a crock, I want my wife back now! I can now step back and see that they are totally right. I have addressed things from my childhood that had shaped the person I was in adulthood in a negative way. Had this sitch not happened I would have continued the same behaviors that I am fixing today. I truly believe things happen for a reason. Whatever the reason I am ready to accept it and look forward to waking up tomorrow and doing it all over again.

My vows say for better or worse. The better is easy but the "worse" is the true measure of us all.