I hope that you get some answers on your eye situation. I'm sure you are having ups and downs thinking about it...but I'm praying for you.
Your h sounds like he's thawing out a bit and baking up nicely in the oven these days. Maybe he senses that things are changing within you and he's trying to figure it out. But, the gifts are a good sign and a baby step in the right direction.
Enjoy your tree and yes, gazing at it is very peaceful and soothing.
Please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
