Hanging on and hoping for the best

[BillyHo]

Last night we took some more things to W new house. We drove separate and I helped carry some heavy stuff W couldn't manage on her own. I finished helping and said I'm going to go. She thanked me and I left. I didn't stay long because once in a while the reality of this whole sitch hits me upside the head.

I drove home and was at my house alone. I looked around and realized the house was in total disarray. My W focus has been on getting her new place setup. She seems to be really enjoying her new adventure. At that moment I thought, why not enjoy making this place my own. I have never had to do any decorating. I always left that to my W. Doing my house the way I want it is going to be a great GAL activity for me.

At the end of the night she was going through some cooking supplies and asking what I wanted to keep. After a few minutes I just said take whatever you need and I'll figure out the rest. I didn't have the energy to even think about any of that little stuff. Weird how the dumbest things get to me. I still think this will be much easier when the moving out is over and done with.