Thanks coly and lt I actually didn't reply. She never texted back. I'm exhausted, i feel physically, mentally & emotionally exhausted...I can make it a day and be ok and then night comes and I'm getting ready for bed and I'm reminded how I won't be going to bed with my W..we had different morning schedules and day schedules but night...we went to bed together every night. Perhaps that's why i struggle with it so much. There are only a few nights in the week i don't cry before drifting off to sleep. I miss her so much. Sometimes I miss her so much I feel it in my bones, like every body part hurts. How is this even possible? How can I miss someone who's caused me so much hurt and pain? I feel like a crazy person for even wanting her back. I can't help it. I just miss her. No rhyme or reason.
