Your counselor has never told you why you allow your W to control how you feel and act? Man your W owns you, body & soul.
I find it difficult to understand how a woman can treat a man the way she has acted with you........and he desire her so much. That doesn't make sense. It sounds as if you don't believe you deserve anything better.
Was this scenario what you watched with your parents?
Perhaps only a therapist can help you with why you struggle with these issues, and how to get control over your own thoughts.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!