Thank you blu and V for your kinds words of encouragement and support. I didn't lose a family member though my father is not doing well at all. In other news, I was really missing my w these past couple of days. Earlier I was wishing and hoping she'd text me. Funny Cus she did, she asked if I had called the cable company to ask about her refund. I told her yes but they are still processing the refund of the cable boxes. W asked if there was a time frame for the $ going back on her card because it's the only $ she has for the electric bill. I told her no time frame. And then...my w texted "so what am I supposed to do" To which I have not replied because nothing nice comes to mind. My thoughts are, put it on a credit card. Ask SOW. Figure it out. I don't know. It's not my problem. And then I remembered, when W asked me not to come home I didn't have a single dollar (other than on my credit cards) because the bills had been paid & w handled finances so by now she had moved money around away from me. So I'm thinking, she sure did not care what I did or couldn't do so why should I care now? I couldn't move Cus I couldn't afford an apartment or a deposit on one, yet W wanted me to leave. Interesting. & then my friend pointed out that as always it's all about W. Selfish. W just cares about her. Do I want to help w, of course I do! However, she's not my W right now. She's still some selfish confused woman I don't really know. Can't help but to feel guilty for not helping but I'm no ones doormat. W was on her high horse for the past 6months, it's interesting for her ask me what to do. I don't understand it. I must look out for me though. Pretty sure I'll reply I don't know. And leave it at that.
