where to begin or end? #2

[jade]

Today i feel hollow and lost. I feel like ive got so much "upkeep" to do, so that th next time the wife is around she sees, wow he hasnt been mopeing around the house.. hes been busy... But most days i really have no drive for the home. Id rather leave n go somewheres else, hide from the situation. But then i feel like if my marriage is to have a chance, that i need to DB hard and now, but usually have no clue what to do.. can you see the fixer in me??