This seems all or nothing to me, I either go for x or not at all. Go for y instead. Compromise on it. Why not?
This seems to me the normality of an R, in that this is ordinary stuff of R, not drama, destruction or over. It just is the pushared and pull of emotions driven by distance.
I sense your lovely man would prefer to hold your hand, give you a hug and just sit and be. That is comfort and empathy. Distance prevents it and thus that understanding has to be met through words. Please consider that words are often harder without contact.
Words often don't cut it sometimes. Acceptance of that which is is likely a support a way of saying without words, we can get through this. Please don't push until you get the response you need, ask Instead for that which you require. As it please tell me it will be ok.
I think that you should bite the bullet and make a visit, even if that is for the briefest glimpse of bliss and connection.
Those are my thoughis.
Your wonderful mum is in my prayers and thoughts today as always. Tell her I have another RIT story to cheer her and some lovely comfort rainbows.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
