The sorrow of it all

[Dawgs]

A school kid. Yes. But at the same time I am happy being on my own. My kids and hobbies are all I need. That's what I tell myself, anyway. Maybe another door will open.

A door that leads to someone who is just excited and happy. To someone who calls/texts first thing in the morning. Those are some of the things I missed in the marriage. It's the simple things - the simple kiss goodnight.

But for now, I'm fine where I am. I may or may not allow that door to be opened. Everything happens in due time. Will Harley open that door? Honestly, I don't know.

I've asked myself what if the ex tries to open that door again? And I always come back to it taking so much from her to even turn the handle. That's almost akin to making one's way through a marked minefield in the middle of night with only the moonlight to guide one.

But, I've also realized that I'm ok. For the first time in a long time, I'm OK. And maybe that's all I need. Sure, it would be great to have that door open again. I'm much, much stronger now and ready for the next day. The sun will always rise, its up to us how we view the day.