Are you saying that you were fine with how things were set up, until she called a halt to the intimacy? She could have no responsibilities and just do what she loved.....which was art, and you would cover everything.....just as long as you had the sex life. When the sex stopped, there wasn't much left in the MR for you, is that what you are feeling? You are doing all the giving, but she's not giving anything back. She's just doing her art.
I'm glad you spoke honestly about looking at certain sites and the women who post a profile. Do you have any experience in dating sites, finding friends, Fbuddies, affair hookups.... or whatever they may call themselves? Please, please don't go there. You may be seeking a temporary fix, but it can lead to problems you never anticipated.
Yes, I was perfectly happy to work hard. I felt loved when we had lots of sex. I did not care how much work I did. Cooking in particular feels sacred to me. Feeding people is a good thing. Now I am still working hard but I am unloved. Perhaps hated even.
I will not go the hookup way. I was just sad and feeling powerless. I don't want that. I just want the wife back.
