It is a miracle Cil, and I am so relieved she was found and not too much the worse for wear. Perhaps it is a blessing that she doesn't remember and I am sure she will be glad to have her boys together.

I can understand your feelings about not being part of things. I don't think that is selfish - it is just feeling the feeling and noticing it - and it's understandable too.

As for XH - well he will do what he wants to do. I always think the main thing is to look back on your own actions and feel at peace with them.

Relax and have a good weekend Cil :-) xx

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus