HI 2Tours, I know that this is puzzling. I know that you want an answer. I'm not sure your wife even knows the answer.
I read recently that the best thing we can do for our own peace of mind is stop trying to get inside their heads.
Someone else may have a different POV, but I thought I'd share this in case it was helpful.
I'm not surprised you felt relief. You know now that you have a month of nc, so you have a month of not having to anticipate what lunacy might come at you from the MLC wormhole.
Do you decorate for the holidays? What sorts of GAL activities are you planning?
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver