Once again, very sage advice Job. Deep down I know I will be okay. I am fortunate enough to make a decent living, so while it would require a lot of lifestyle changes to divorce, I'm not terrified of that (just not looking forward to it). The thing that hurts me the most is my son.
I went through hell and back to have him. I moved mountains to bring him into existence because I wanted a child so badly. God was good to me and gave me something I wanted. Now after all that, I might have to settle on being a part-time mother. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that after enduring all that, I would only get to be with him and help raise him 50% of the time. I have a terrible time with this.
When I think about losing the double income, I think "I can survive;" when I think about losing a partner in life to share the joys and help with the sorrows, I think, "I can survive;" but when I think of losing my son, I lose my mind.
