In some sort of funk today. Or idk what it is. Met with my friend and her family and a few friends for her birthday. Of course everyone is with their SO. It’s only the 5th time I see them without my W. It’s weird. Of course the conversation came up about her, just remembering last year’s shenanigans and someone mentioned how my W was there. It’s still hard, idk. Then, I saw on Facebook that one of my friends is pregnant, she too is in a same sex relationship, and of course I’m happy for her. I guess it just wish my R was good, so many good things happening all around me and I want my good things with my W. I already disliked the holidays, now idk how I’m going to get through them.
I’m also very tired. That’s likely what’s making me crabby and feel all weird and as always, I miss my w.
Fightin, thanks for the kind words. Glad I can be some sort of inspiration for you. I know This rollercoaster [censored] but yes, we can get off whenever we want. I guess I’m not ready, as much as I hate it. I thought W might want excuses to talk to me but I can’t allow those thoughts in my brain. Hang in there Fightin!
