Yes I have this also about the attacking. It makes perfect sense. She told me so many times she hates all of this and didn't want it to happen. She wanted to believe me that I'm working on myself but thinks it's fake....

I'm continuing to go to counseling for myself. I've realized the things I did wrong in the relationship and I'm willing to put in the time and effort. Yesterday, was the first day that I didn't hear a word from her. It's hard because we were the type to text/call each other 24/7.