Glad you have an outlet. You might look into meditation and/or cognitive behavior therapy to help with the non-stop thinking. I have and continue with both and they help. Stay safe!
- m and ww in 30s - s4 - m 11 yrs, t12 -ilybinilwy ~5/16 + request for OM - bd 7/16, confirm ea and strongly suspected pa - 9/16 ww claimed to have broken contact with om
