Hey QT - Im sorry life is throwing you a bunch of lemons all at once. I can only imagine the stresses of job searching and moving on top of all of the relationship stuff.
With that said, I wanted to give some comments on your text. My thoughts are in blue.
I know you probably despise me and that we will be divorced soon. why are you saying you 'know' that she despises you? I dont see any benefit in reinforcing this in her mind. I just wanted to apologize again if I was mean or insensitive. Do you see the problem with this? You're apologizing, but you dont even know what for. Youre saying 'if I was mean or insensitive' which implies that you dont believe that you were. So how can you actually be sorry? Please understand I never meant to hurt anyone. And if I was ever grumpy or antisocial it was because of all of the stress I had trying to maintain a job to support our family's lifestyle. So if you were grumpy, then it wasnt your fault. This implies that it was HER fault. Also, those stressors arent going to go away if you were to get back together, right? So, what have you learned? how have you changed? I'm sorry again. I hope one day we can be at a better place in our relationship. I will always be here to help with the kids and my first priority is trying to be an honest and better and sober person for them.
Just my thoughts. Take them for what theyre worth.
