I tried it! Thanks again Job! And he said he wanted to think about it.
That's better than an outright "no."
The hardest part of this for me has been the detachment and keeping expectations at zero. I have to admit that I am disappointed at his response.
I don't know why I can't seem to this. It is rooted in fear. Fear of what? Fear of losing my M. I keep telling myself that holding on achieves nothing and does nothing to change outcome and I see that, understand it, and know it to be true. So why do I still do it? I wish I knew.
