Doodler, no funny business today? I feel as though I’m strong, confident & I’m certainly self-sufficient. I think with time the LBS fog clears, just as the WW fog does. Or doesn’t. I guess I’m not sure. I’m assuming just as our WW spouses we all take a different amount of time to get through our LBS fog? Someday’s I feel as though I need to walk away and others obviously I’m holding on. It’s most definitely a roller coaster.
W texted me first thing this morning with a Hey, I replied and she told me she found some of my clothes asking if I want them. And that the cable company charged her CC for some unknown reason. I’m going to tell her to just throw them out and that I’ll try to get the cable thing sorted sometime this weekend.
For someone who is debating on giving our M a shot, she sure wants my stuff out of the house. that’s annoying and I don’t understand it. For a second I thought she might want to see me, but I can’t mind read and frankly I don’t want to see her or talk to her. It only hurts me and sets me back on my path.
I feel utterly disappointed, in myself for allowing myself to be hurt and put in this situation. For being able to see some clarity with the way she’s treating me and yet and still allowing myself to be here. I wish I had some courage to walk away. Also utterly disappointed in her. In her for not being the person she claimed, or I thought she was. A strong confident woman who always knew what she wanted.
I deserve so much better, we all do…so why am I still here?
I feel as though I’m strong, confident & I’m certainly self-sufficient. I think with time the LBS fog clears, just as the WW fog does. Or doesn’t. I guess I’m not sure. I’m assuming just as our WW spouses we all take a different amount of time to get through our LBS fog? Someday’s I feel as though I need to walk away and others obviously I’m holding on. It’s most definitely a roller coaster. 