Why are you still complimenting her? Seems as if you feel the need to say something to her often. Gotta stop that. Journal it if you need to tell someone but don't tell her. It's perusing and can be overwhelming and smothering.
You made the comment about how you feel like she's dead....not to be too morbid but, I have a friend/client who lost her 2nd husband whom she was madly in love with. She said the divorce was more painful as she knew her Xh was still around, living life, making memories with other people, etc while the death of her h was finality.
You also mentioned it's hard to step back because you said you would never leave your family. You stepping back is really the only chance you have at saving or maintaining your family. And without you detaching, you are squandering that opportunity.
34, xw33 M-10, T-18 2D (8 and 5) Ilybinilwy-1/16 EA/PA- 7/15-present (with my former best friend) Trial apartment-2/16 (also when she considers us separated) W moved out-8/16 W Filed 11/21/16 D final 1/30/17
