That's me in the spotlight

[Altair]

Hi all, my third thread
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That's me in the corner

Basically I'm in NC-land. GALing one day at a time. Focusing on trying to be positive, and get through the holidays in one piece, maybe even have a bit of fun. I'm a bit calmer now, my roller coaster has turned into a more benign, kiddie one at present. I think I've gained a lot of strength; I'll be able to handle what life throws my way. Today was exciting for me. Believe it or not, those of you who have put up with my divinely banal writing on this site, I can be very funny in person. (On this site; however, A.P. puts me to shame with stick jokes)
It's why H said he fell for me in the first place. It really is my saving grace.
Today, I think really since I started this job, I was just killing it in a meeting. Totally cracking up everyone. I felt alive (finally) and the meeting leader was like, (Altair) she's got this, listen to her, she knows this.
I felt so great and it was wonderful to see the room of laughing folk.
I used to be more sarcastic years ago but my humor now is warm and encouraging, inclusive (I hope). Anyway today I felt like myself. I have no idea if H will reappear, or what happens next in this M. One of the last conversations we had was along the lines of, 'There's a chance for us to work this out, I love being with you, for one, you're one of the funniest people I've ever met' (bear with me, again, I've been Eyeore cubed on this site)
Anyway, back to our regularly scheduled DB programming. Uh, I'm alone, in my apartment, eating jelly beans in bed...