Thank you Nygal I will read it again. I think I forgot I was trying to be the lighthouse. "I picture something standing tall and bright -- something we are drawn to. Something that guides us home" ive been thinking a lot about that. I go back and forth between wanting to be the lighthouse that guides her home and walking away. Saying "screw it" and just leaving her to find her own way, wherever that leaves her. I guess I took this vacation and though I fully enjoyed it and I feel great, I'm more confused than when I left. More confused in the sense of what I want for me. I don't want to be plan b. I hate the thought of that, of my W sleeping with OW while W asks me for more time. Wth!!! I'm worth a heck of a lot more than that.
