Well her attempts to keep me engaged are very few and far between which has is pros and cons. Pro being I don't have to deal with the emotional roller coaster, con being it takes some hope away. Having any sort of hope is bittersweet as well, on the one hand I don't want hope to hold me back from being a better me, on the other hand I don't want to lose hope completely to the point I just don't care if she ever graces my presence again, but maybe that is exactly where I need to be.
All I know right now is I don't want to play by her rules anymore; I have my own rules and boundaries and I'm sticking to them. She wants a life without me, fine, she's got it, but I'm not going to let that keep me down no matter what she's off doing or not doing.
Boom!!! Go back and read your first few posts when you joined the board...definitely an evolution
34, xw33 M-10, T-18 2D (8 and 5) Ilybinilwy-1/16 EA/PA- 7/15-present (with my former best friend) Trial apartment-2/16 (also when she considers us separated) W moved out-8/16 W Filed 11/21/16 D final 1/30/17
