Moved out, working on GAL

[fightin]

Well her attempts to keep me engaged are very few and far between which has is pros and cons. Pro being I don't have to deal with the emotional roller coaster, con being it takes some hope away. Having any sort of hope is bittersweet as well, on the one hand I don't want hope to hold me back from being a better me, on the other hand I don't want to lose hope completely to the point I just don't care if she ever graces my presence again, but maybe that is exactly where I need to be.

All I know right now is I don't want to play by her rules anymore; I have my own rules and boundaries and I'm sticking to them. She wants a life without me, fine, she's got it, but I'm not going to let that keep me down no matter what she's off doing or not doing.