Bee, maybe I am overanalyzing. I have been seeing her less over the last few weeks as she has distanced but I probably am overanalyzing the situation as she has also not been as friendly. I need to work on letting go. It's so hard when the ghost I love haunts the house at times.
Bttrfly, I have a lot to work on with GAL and figuring myself out. I also need to find a healthy mix of relaxing. I used to go hiking all the time which is hard this time of the year and also w/o W. It was our thing so it's kind of a trigger, we'd go out all day. I will have to learn to get over that because I really enjoy it. I need to find some little things. I've also been trying to think of some goals for myself starting with more exercise and finding a new job.
Job, you're right. It seems like her funk has already lifted a little. I wonder how much of it is due to the holidays or maybe unrecognized guilt/confusion.
I've been having very little communication. I did text yesterday evening to see if she was coming back. Her reply was friendly, I just said to drive safe and again a short friendly reply. She was nice once she got here and she stayed awhile. She told me she planned on going to see one of her friends today, a 3 hour one-way drive and the kids said they wanted to go when she asked so she stopped by again this morning to pick them up. She was friendly again this morning showing me pictures of the kids from the week and asking about how my sister was. My sister told me she texted her today too.
I'm going to keep on being consistent with what I've been doing and work more on detaching, letting her spin. I think I did an okay job not letting W see how things got to me last week.
