I am having a hard time today. Just can't seem to get moving. It's 1:30 and I'm still in my pjs. Was supposed to go to bootcamp and go for a run, but I cancelled. I have some cleaning and laundry to do, as well as legal paperwork, but I just can't do it. I'll get there.... I think Ill just start with a shower.
So, hawho, I like the suggestion of nc. The only reason we've even had contact is because of the dog. I don't know if we can come up with a legal agreement right away that can outline new stipulations.... But I would love to not see stbx for a month or longer. But I refuse to give up my dog. That little creature helped me soooo much through this whole ordeal.
I remember July of 2015, I had been in my apt for a few weeks and was still in my own fog about what was happening. One afternoon, I found myself lying on the living room floor sobbing. I ended up falling asleep with my arm straight out with my palm facing up. Within a few minutes, my pup grabbed his bed, dragged it next to me, laid down and placed his paw in my open palm. It was the sweetest thing. I truly think animals know when you're in pain and he has comforted me during the most difficult time of my entire life.
I'm upset and I have no idea how this is going to unfold. Just when I think I'm on the other side of the mountain, I see another taller and more precarious summit ahead of me. I just don't know how much I have left.
Oh and I totally agree with Job.... The more I show i want the dog, the more he's going to bully. This is psychological and emotional warfare and its devastating.
Me- 30's H- 40's T-10 M-5 I moved out b/c he wanted space- June 15 D filed by H: September 16
