Hanging on and hoping for the best

[BillyHo]

Well.....I am a weak, weak man. Just 2 days of acting as if and serious GALing and she pulls out the big guns. She followed me around the house so I went to my room to read. What do you know she decides that would be a good time to sort some mismatched socks that have been there forever. I just stared at my iPad the whole time. She then threw a sock at me and said do you want to shut that door and lock it for a little while. I said why would I do that? She said you know why. I asked her why and she said she was horny. Keep in mind the last time we attempted to ML she cried after 1min and she said it is too emotional. Also just 3 days ago she said that sex is emotional for a woman and that's why she can't do it right now. So back to today. She said she wanted to have sex and that it wouldn't upset her because she really needed it. So anyway, I caved and there was no crying or anything like that.

After we talked about the other night when I caught her in the lie. She said she went to a bar after she went shopping. She said again there is no one else and she wasn't ready for that. She said she doesn't know if this (her and I together) is what she wants or not. I told her I want to be able to believe you and trust you. She said then let's start over. I still don't know what that means. She's still moving out next month. I guess there is no way to know what any of this means. I want to believe that if there was a OM that she wouldn't even consider ML to me but who knows.

I am assuming this is the ultimate temp check. The sad thing is I knew it was coming. I told my pastor, who is also one of my best friends, that at some point I expected her to try to get my attention by coming on to me. little did I know it would be an hour later. I was prepared to say "no thanks" but like I said I am weak.

I assume I don't let this interrupt my GAL and acting as if. Did I make a big mistake here? What do you think?