I've been quiet. ( a blessing, right?, lol) kind of going through a weird stage. Trying to properly get rid of this plumber , but I want to word it nicely. The guy likes me, but dude, he is proof romance is dead.
I've been having a truly strange reconnection with someone that might be the kind of closure we seek but never get. Long story. But I may have faith people can change. Or I'm a sucker, but I think it's the former
Holidays are notoriously rough for me, but I'm so busy they have been a bit easier this year. If distraction gets you through it, why not?
My mind floats back to ex Ng and where we were last year, at this time of the year. It was the biggest mind F time of the year for me with him. But the good times were great.
He's fading a bit. Truth is, he found what he wanted, he's happy. Ex 's usually just become distant memories and I guess that's what's going on for the both of us. Mine usually pop back in somewhere down the line in one form or another. But I'm accepting he's gone.
The plus is the way he treated me as a person has set my standard much higher. This is both good and bad. He might be the first guy who seems to adore me. And adore ME. I want that again. And I always fully returned it and appreciated it with him. He may stink at the relationship path, but other than that, I felt adored. And it was mutual.
So that's all. I've got a free weekend to myself. Time to shop, cook, and do schoolwork.
