Moved out, working on GAL

[fightin]

Not sure what triggered it, maybe feelings of rejection surfacing, but I'm extremely angry tonight. My mess have my married name on them that I was actually just in the process of getting changed at my W's request. She asked me to change it, and of course I was okay with that, but now looking at that name makes me so angry. I hate it, and unless I go ahead and file for divorce I can't change it back.

I don't know what to do with all of this anger. I feel like it is just boiling inside and going to explode in a not so pretty way. Maybe it is because I've been using anger to prevent feelings of sadness, I don't know, but I'm really beginning to not the angry version of myself either.

Going to do some breathing exercises and mindfulness.