Still lost, still confused (part 2)

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Hi J2,

I feel for you, you stitch is much more F up than mine (although mine is pretty out there too...). Things must be hard for you, but I want to assure you things aren't easy for you XW and XBF. They might think it's true love and all, but when the lust wear off, and it will, they will need to face their conscious. Trust me they know the pain they are causing to you and the children, be the bigger person, do the right thing, let the universe punish them, it's hard, but harder the challenge the greater the reward.

My H texted me just then, saying I am doing the best and hardest with S, and he appreciate me. This is the same person that said I was a crazy control freak, and he wants nothing but run away from me. When they are not busy defending themselves, they can come to their senses. Just don't be their enemy, or they will be too busy fighting you rather than reflecting on themselves.

In saying that, I am still lose. I still don't know if I should hope for his return. So really, I am not in the position to give you a speech. I thank you for commenting on my thread, it's always good to a third party's opinion coz I am so consumed by my emotions to see clearly.

I think you are doing great, feeling the pain is part of the process.