Maybe Things are settling?

[Ggrass]

Well the Ai, stuff was returned. Busy time had a couple of babies lost my old dawg.

S18 came the day we lost the dawg, he's finally manruting and things are going back in our r to a time where we relate a lot better like old times. With the added bonus he's a little more grown up. That's really nice, bf job is supposedly going ft and perminate so that's good news.

Still nc, but really these days have no disire to break that and I really like not having to put up with xh. Someone reminded me one of the greatest traits he had of being an Indian giver with Christmas fast approaching I think of all this years and gifts he kept and hope they finally bring him the happiness I know he's just never gunna get.

I know that Indian giving infiltrated all areas of his life, from the material to the emotional and it's not till we are reminded that we know really know all that has going and the difference it makes to have people really give and not expect payment to get back a return.

Is is really a zing the clarity you get as time marches on, the out of balance stuff and how nice it is when the ship really rights itself. Things feel a lot less out of control and I hard,y believe Some of the dramatics, even tho I lived it, I know why others find my story so hard to actually really believe.

I think in some ways I've softened and can feel absolutely sorry for him and people like him. That doesn't mean I engage as much as I did nor do I feel the need to justify myself by standing up verbally.

Almost a full circle, where we start validation even tho we don't truely feel it then want to stand up for our rights and then now I feel I can validate another life and story even if I know it not to be true because they believe it to be so I don't have to agree.

Interesting times really.