Coffee and spinning

[Altair]

To me (and this doesn't negate other definitions) spinning is an out-of-control mind. Thoughts spin and jumble, and keep arising, repeating themselves. Memories get rerun and analyzed over and over, with bleak thoughts and emotions as outcomes.
This is where the yoga, the meditation, any exercises and reading comes in.
For me, my mind is still spinning, obsessive and cluttered. Fear, too, is there but it is fear of seeing H as much as fear of not seeing H. Other original fears (such as losing H over NC) have subsided. I know it requires focus and work, but to stop my spinning mind has been quite the challenge.